Well, today I picked up Brittany at noon and we went to get our books at Clark State. I got a psychology book, a psychology workbork, an english book, and that costed Tecumseh (not me, hehe) $186. I think it's crazy how much these books cost, and it doesn't help that I'll have to pay for them on my own in a couple years. After that we went for Brittany's tap dance shoes, then to the mall, then to walmart, and then we came home. I'm a nervous wreck from driving in this snow and ice, and I'm actually glad to be home for a while. Tommorow, I have to go with someone to the "baby docter", and at some point I have to take the jeans that I bought yesterday back. I went to Pacsun yesterday and tried on size 7 jeans which were to big, so I just went ahead and got size 5. I put them on today and they're still way too big. I actually think I can fit in a size 3! How cool is that?

 Brittany and I were talking earlier, and we've decided that we let our unstable sides get the best of us. See, something has been wrong in my room for the past 2 nights. I've gotten maybe 5 hours of sleep because I truly feel that there is some kind of presence in the corner watching me. I close my eyes for a couple minutes, but then I get freaked out and open them just so I can make sure there's nothing there. I really don't know anymore...we also talked about death for a while. Like, who would come to our funerals, how we want to die, and we both decided that if we have to die early, we want to go out tragically. Like, real dramatic. And, if we die early, we don't want people to be upset. I guess we think too much... 

// series one - you
-- Name: Trisha
-- Birth date: March 21st, 1988
-- Birthplace: Springfield, OH
-- Current Location: New Carlisle, OH
-- Eye Color: Blue
-- Hair Color: I used to have it black, but I tried to dye it back to brown, so it's brown with black streaks.
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Aries

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: German
-- The shoes you wore today: Black Mudd boots
-- Your hair: Layered, above my shoulders
-- Your eyes: Big and bright
-- Your weakness?: Love
-- Your fears: Losing loved ones
-- Your perfect pizza: Lots and lots of cheese
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Finding someone that I can have a relationshipm with, maybe getting married later.

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "I have a nasty taste in my mouth"
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes, hair, clothing style
-- Your best physical feature: Probably my eyes
-- Your bedtime: Whenever I feel like it
-- Your greatest accomplishment: 4 years of marching band (one more to go), and 6 years of playing my clarinet
-- Your most missed memory: Going to the movies every friday night with Brittany K and her mom.

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
-- Single or group dates: Group
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike
-- Lipton or Nestea: Lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: No
-- Cuss: Yes
-- Sing well: No
-- Take a shower everyday: Yes
-- Have a crush(es): Yes
-- Who are they: That would give away my secret...
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes
-- Want to go to college: Yes
-- Like school: Yeah, I guess
-- Want to get married: Yes
-- Believe in yourself: Not as much as I should
-- Get motion sickness: No
-- Think you're attractive: For the most part, no.
-- Think you're a health freak: No
-- Get along with your parents: Not really
-- Like thunderstorms: Not when I'm by myself
-- Play an instrument: Yes

// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: No
-- Smoke(d): No
-- Done a drug: No
-- Have Sex: No
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Go on a date: No
-- Go to the mall?: Yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
-- Eaten sushi: No
-- Been on stage: Yes
-- Been dumped: No
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: No
-- Been in love: Yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: Yes
-- Stolen anything: No

// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yes
-- If so, was it mixed company: Yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
-- Been caught "doing something": No
-- Been called a tease: Yes
-- Gotten beaten up: No
-- Shoplifted: No
-- If so, did you get caught: No
-- Changed who you were to fit in: No

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: Probably 25-30.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2, don't know about names
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: On the beach
-- How do you want to die: I don't know, but I wanna go out with a bang.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: A psychiatrist
-- What country would you most like to visit: England

// series nine - opposite/(same) sex
-- Best eye color?: Doesn't matter
-- Best hair color?: Doesn't matter
-- Short or long hair?: Short, or shaggy
-- Best height: Taller than me
-- Best weight: Doesn't matter, as long as he's not a stick
-- Best articles of clothing: Pants
-- Best first date location: Movies
-- Best first kiss location: By the beach...I like beaches!

// series ten - number of
-- Number of boys you like: 1
-- Number of boys you have made out with: 3
-- Number of boyfriends you've had: 2
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 or 3
-- Number of CDs that I own: probably over a hundred
-- Number of piercings: 0
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 3 or 4
-- Number of scars on my body: Too many
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: Nothing.

I got waaay to much stuff...

[x] mean yes, [] means no, and [/] means somewhat

[ ] I'm obsessed with new things.
[ ] I'm the youngest child.
[x] I am a shopaholic.
[ ] I have my ears gaged.
[x] I wear black eyeliner.
[x] I love strawberry daiquiris.
[x] I can't live without lipgloss.
[x] I can't live without music.
[ ] I lived in Tahoe.
[x] I spend all the money I have.
[x ] I'll be in college for over 4 years.
[ ] I love designer handbags.
[x] I get annoyed easily.
[x] I eventually want kids.
[x ] I loved the Backstreet Boys.
[x] I have more than a couple horrible memories.
[ ] I like to watch Degrassi.
[x] I am a person.
[x] I hate people who are fake.
[x] I can be mean when I want to.
[x] My dreams are bizzare.
[x] I have way too many pairs of shoes.
[x] I've seen Shes All That at least 50 times.
[x] I dress how I feel that day.
[ ] I love Charmed.
[x] Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
[x] I hate when people are ridiculously late.
[x] I procrastinate.
[ ] Winter is my favorite season.
[x] I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
[x] I love to sleep.
[x] I wish I was smarter.
[ ] I am the hottest bachelorette.
[x] I have a lot of drama.
[x] No one knows the full story of my life.
[ ] I love my hair.
[x] I sometimes fight with my parents.
[x] I love the beach.
[x] I have had the chicken pox.
[/] I'm excited for the future.
[ ] I can't control my emotions.
[x] I can't wait till New Year's.
[x] I love to make fun of MTV reality shows.
[x] I love my friends.
[x] Christmas is my favorite holiday.
[x] I can be very insecure sometimes.
[ ] I have had a broken bone.
[x] I hate ignorant people.
[ ] I love my laptop.
[X] I like guys that play the guitar.
[x] I state the obvious.
[/] I'm a happy person.
[x] I love to dance.
[x] I love to sing. Even though I can't...
[ ] I hate cleaning my room.
[x] I tend to get jealous very easily.
[x] I like to play video games.
[ ] I love John Mayer.
[x] I hate when I see animals/people getting abused.
[ ] I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
[x] I don't like to study for tests.
[x] I love playdough.
[ ] I am too forgiving.
[ ] I have a good sense of direction.
[x ] I love high school.
[x] I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
[x] I don't drink enough to get drunk.
[x] I love kisses on the forehead.
[x] I love the color pink.
[x] I don't sew.
[x] I am not addicted to drugs.
[ ] I love the Olsen twins.
[ ] I'd try out for the softball team.
[x] I become stressed easily.
[x] I like comfy sweatpants.
[x] I love shaggy hair on guys.
[x] I love the smell of fresh laundry.
[ ] I hate when people spell Red Hot Chili Peppers, with 2 l's. Or only 1 p.
[ ] I get along with my parents.
[x] Friends are very important to me.
[x] I get confused easily.
[x] I like to write with black ink better than with blue.
[ ] My hair is naturally curly.
[x] Taking photos is fun.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I made cookies tonight.
[ ] I dont like swimming.
[ ] I want to be 5 again.
[x] I want to travel someday.
[x] I have a cable modem
[x] I can remember useless stuff but never anything relevent.
[x] I have a pet cat.
[x] I am 16.

Have you...

[ ]been drunk.
[ ]smoked pot.
[x]smooched a member of the opposite sex.
[x]made out with a member of the opposite sex.
[x]done more things with a member of the opposite sex
[x ]rode in a taxi.
[ ]been dumped.
[x]gotten your heart broken.
[ ]shoplifted
[ ]been fired
[ ]had a job.
[ ]been in a fist fight.
[x]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]stole something from your job.
[ ]celebrated new years in times square.
[ ]went on a blind date
[ ]smoked a cigarette.
[ ]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[ ]broken a bone.
[ ] had sex in a car.
[ ] pissed on a friend's car while drunk
[x]White lied to a friend.
[x ]had a crush on a teacher.
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ]been to europe.
[ ]taken caffeine pills.
[x] been to disney world
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[ ]been to california.
[x]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[ ]peed on someones lawn.
[x]skipped school.
[ ]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[x]smooched a member of the same sex
[ ]made out with a member of the same sex.
[ ]done more things with a member of the same sex.
[ ]had sex with a boy
[ ]had sex with a girl.
[ ]been in a car accident.
[ ]partied for days and days straight
[x]stayed up all night with a friend.
[x]had a family member die.
[x ]played clue
[x]had a sleepover party.
[ ]went ice skating.
[ ]dropped xtasy.
[x]been cheated on.
[ ]had a threesome.
[ ]had a quinceanera.
[x]have a car.
[x] drove.
[x] had a conversation with a police officer
[ ] had grey hair
[x] done prank phone calls.

This weekend has utterly sucked. Jessica was really sick last night, but she still went out with us anyways, so I'll probably end up sick too. Besides that, I decided that I was sick of my black hair so I called Fiesta and Nikki said that if I wanted to get the black out of my hair, I would have to get it stripped. Salon stripping costed 75$, but she said I could go over to Sally's and get a home stripping kit. I did that, and the lady that got it for me said, "This will get the black out, but you have to dye it the color you want immediately after you strip it. I'm also going to warn you that your hair will not be it's natural color. I don't know what color it will turn, so you'll just have to be suprised." After I bought that, I bought the hair dye I wanted and went to the movies. We got home at 10, and I started on my hair. We let the stripper set for an hour, and I went to wash it out...Oh. My. God. The roots were platinum blonde, the sides were orange and the tips were dark brown. I was like, "well this is nice" and put in the new dye. I let it sit for a half hour, and then I washed it out. I noticed that it didn't look "right" but I blow dried it anyway. This is where it gets upsetting. My roots were still platinum blonde, the sides were orange/red, and the roots were still dark brown. I sat up and cried for an hour, because the fact is, I don't have a hell of a lot of self confidence, and I looked like a multicolored rat. Mimi took me in to Fiesta this morning, and they cut off a couple of inches. The lady at the salon also told me to get an ash blonde hair dye and re-dye it. I did this, and now I look (almost) normal.

Moral of the story? Don't dye your hair unless you want to lose sanity over it.

Time for another teenage girl rant. If you don't wanna hear it...go away.

1. I like Justin.

2. Justin likes me.

3. Justin doesn't want a serious relationship right now.

4. I might also like Zack.

5. Zack told me he liked me.

6. Zack told Selena that he's getting me a ring for Christmas.

7. Zack has a suicidal girlfriend.

8. When Justin found out about the ring thing, he laughed because he couldn't imagine me & Zack together (he might just have to picture it soon...).

9. Justin will and does make out with anyone who comes along.

10. Megan did something (ahem) for a guy, and it turns out he had a girlfriend all along.

11. Jessica got blown off by a guy that she liked, and we just got home from dressing like old ladies and dressing my mom up like a thug to go spy on him.

12. Brittany K is having a midlife crisis at the age of 17 where she wants to go back to 4th grade.

13. There was a hot guy in my aerobics class, and I found out where he works...I'm very tempted to go and ask him out.

14. I think it's painfully obvious that I want a boyfriend. 

15. I am on a new medicine which makes me sick to my stomach, dizzy, headachy, and it also makes me feel fat.

16. I feel majorly fat.

17. My two aunts called me ugly.

18. I think I need a therapist.

 I thought this week was going to be fun, because Band started back up for the last time, but I was soo wrong. I go to practice Tuesday, and Heather W was talking about how she got her braces off and how she wanted to kiss a guy to see what it feels like to kiss without braces. At the end of practice, Justin said "hi" and then "bye" to me and then he got in Heather's car so she could take him home. I was kind of uneasy, because I don't exactly trust them together, but what could I do? He's not my boyfriend or anything...anyway I didn't hear anything about it the next day. He acted normal and everything, and I was happy...until last night. I called Brittany to see how she was, and she told me that Heather went to Justin's that night so she could kiss a guy without her braces. But did they just kiss once? No. They made out. Then, Brit said that she asked Justin about it and he said, "oh, it was nothing. Don't tell anyone." But, to me, it was something. I really thought that he liked me, but he obviously doesn't like me enough to turn her down. Anyway, I cried all last night until he called me. I answered, and he asked what I was doing. I said "nothing" and he said "yes you are, you're talking to me!" and I said, "Is that supposed to be special?" and he said "I see, I guess I'm nothing now" and I said "Yep. Pretty much." then I hung up. I felt really bad...in fact I still do, but I'm so confused. I hate him for ripping my heart out, but on second thought, he isn't my boyfriend, so he can kiss whoever the hell he wants, and I can kiss whoever the hell I want. But, this is almost like my mistake with Cory, so I think I'm going to call and apologize, and then write it off. I'm don't want to give up on him, because even if he is a scumball...I think I'm falling in love with him. So, here's a little something for girls that feel like me right now, and also to Justin...

 You may not know it yet - maybe you'll never even think about it - but I'm special. You're gonna meet a lot of girls throughout your life, and a lot of them will be special to you. But I'll tell you right now that you'll never find another me. So take a good look around you, because I'm thinking of lea ving, and I may never come back. Are you going to let this princess walk right through your life, or are you going to make her sit down and try on that glass slipper you're holding? And if she does take the time to try it on, are you going to hope that it fits?