Justin,

 You know I'm pissed off at you. I know that you know it. Just a few minutes ago, I tried talking to you on AOL. You didn't even have the nerve to say "hi" to me. This time, I'm not going to be the one to apologize because I did NOTHING wrong. You are the one who led me on. You, the one who said all along that honesty was the most important part of a relationship, lied to me. I just wanted to talk to you, and maybe be friends again...but I guess that's never going to happen. The least you could do is talk to me! Maybe explain some things? So right now I'm asking you to get a backbone and talk to me. That's all. I'm not going to be a bitch or anything. I deserve an explanation...I deserve to be treated right. If you can't do this for me...then you aren't the man that I thought you could be.  

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?
Find your birthday, then scroll down to see an explanation. This is supposed to tell you about yourself, I guess. It seems like it did for me!

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 02 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree

Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

YOUR TREE (in alphabetical order)


 Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and
 attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive,
 loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner,
 very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.
 Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive,
 demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented,
 likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover,
 sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love
 and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks,
materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime
 companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

 Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,
 unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the
vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of
 imagination, Little ambition creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt,
likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to
look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often
 impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy
Optimism waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive,
well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes
 acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented,
 very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes
what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be
content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and
affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied,
faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain
 knowledge, needs to be needed.

 Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) - pleasant shape, tasteful clothes,
modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but
not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others,
noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

 Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed,
honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker
when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few
sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great
 intelligence.
Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well,
loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them,
hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness
after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish,
many friends, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very
demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting
impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite
moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, hasa precise sense
of judgment and expects complete fairness.

 Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and
 condition, good taste, it's not egoistic, makes life as comfortable
as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness
and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is
 seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure
of its decisions, very conscientious.

 Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life
dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good
ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear
tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for
 family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use
 them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at
 times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of
imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud,
self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has
many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life,
wants to impress.

 Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting,
 independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the
ground, a person of action.

 Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings,
reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of
jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

 Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and
 harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry,
not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly
 in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self
 esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not
very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and
pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity,
great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy,
reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

 Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without
 egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even
complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste,
artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts,
often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected
reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and
uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist,
very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
 Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family
life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything
beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless,
capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when
pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until
they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Tricia
2. Trish
3. Pepper spray

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. ImpatientAries29
2. daddys-lil-defect
3. AnimeCrzyChik

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My personality
2. Uh...I guess my nose
3. I dunno

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My feet
2. My hands
3. My legs

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE(D) YOU:
1. Needles
2. Losing my friends
3. Love

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Cell phone
2. Chapstick
3. Music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Pink slippers
2. My band hoodie
3. PJ Bottoms

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists(at the moment)):
1. Green Day
2. Good Charlotte
3. Sugarcult

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "Forget about you" by Dierks Bentley
2. "YMCA" by the Village people
3. "Case of the fake people" by TLC

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. New relationships
2. Forgetting about people who have done me wrong
3. Feeling better about myself

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Humor
2. Communication
3. Honesty

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I love music
2. I'm tired
3. I'm not a virgin

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Smile
3. Hair

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Go to all my classes the whole week
2. Yoga
3. Lick my elbow

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. writing
2. hanging out with friends
3. music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Talk to Rex
2. Eat
3. Listen to music

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Psychologist
2. Computer programmer
3. Teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. California
2. London
3. New York

THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Roxie
2. Angela
3. Lila

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get a tattoo (very small, of course)
2. Get married
3. Travel the world

WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR USERNAME?: Riotgirl? It's a Good Charlotte song.

NAME FIVE [5] OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS: chicken, spagetti, green beans, mac & cheese, and lasagna.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER?: Yeah, at glamour shots.

NAME ALL MEMBERS OF THE BEATLES: I have no idea...

WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE?: I spent a day in Canada.

ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY: Being alive.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY?: Marching band.

WHAT IS THE MOST INSANE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR/TO YOUR CRUSH THAT HE/SHE MIGHT NOT/MIGHT KNOW ABOUT?: I'm not sure...I've done a lot of crazy things.

DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: I dunno...I don't want a big wedding, at least not right now.

WOULD YOU EVER JOIN TEMPTATION ISLAND?: No.

NAME THREE [3] TEACHERS YOU LIKED IN HIGH SCHOOL/MIDDLE SCHOOL/ELEMENTARY: Mr. Mckenny, Mrs. Pearcy, Mrs. Back.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE QUOTE? WHAT IS IT?: "I say what I want. I don`t care if it offends you, and If I really don`t like you, trust me...I won`t pretend to."

MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS... [CARE TO SHARE THE STORY?]: I guess it would have to be a couple weeks ago. The guy I liked (and I thought liked me, too), out of nowhere, got a girlfriend. I had to hear it from another friend...he didn't even have the nerve to tell me. We had been through a lot...I was even there for him when he cried once. I thought he was special, and that he treated people with respect, but now I know that he doesn't care about anyone but himself. Now he acts like he's too good for me, and he also acts like he's too good for his old friends. I absolutely hate him now, and If I ever got the chance to talk to him, I'm pretty sure I'd rip him a new one.

THE SCHOOL PICTURE YOU BURIED IN YOUR BOTTOM DRAWER?: I haven't actually done it, but I'd like to hide my 6th grade picture.

DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES? I hate when my food touches. I dunno, it just irks me.

WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: The way they act, and how they can just treat girls like shit.

WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? [care to share why?]: My best friend is Brittany. We've been through 4 years of guard together, and we've shared all kinds of stuff...
NAME ONE TV CHARACTER YOU'D MOST WANT TO BE: I dunno...

IF YOU WERE FAMOUS, AND WERE TO BE A GUEST ON A TALK SHOW, WHOSE SHOW WOULD YOU CHOOSE? WHY?: Probably Regis & Kelly.

DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD SLEEPING HABITS?: I cuddle.

WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER?: Hang out with friends, help Brittany move, maybe go to King's Island.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW?: "Forget about you" by Dierks Bentley.

WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG: It's like a knife, through the heart, when it all comes apart, it's like someone takes a pin to your balloon...

DO YOU KNOW AT LEAST ONE DISNEY SONG BY HEART? WHICH ONE?: Yeah, quite a few.

YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR: PJ bottoms and a tank top.

WHAT'S IN YOUR BOOKBAG?: My books, my notebooks and folders, pencils, and pens.

WHAT'S IN YOUR WALLET/PURSE?: My license, credit cards, money, and my clark state ID.

HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET/PURSE RIGHT NOW?: None.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES?: Converse.

IF YOU COULD'VE GONE TO YOUR SENIOR PROM IN A DIFFERENT OUTFIT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?: I haven't had a senior prom, yet.

HOW WAS YOUR SENIOR PROM?: Haven't had one.

TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS: I had three friends over at a hotel for my 13th birthday.

WOULD YOU RATHER BE A HOBBIT, AN ELF OR A DWARF?: An elf.

WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?: I'd give some to charity, I'd buy a house, Maybe some stuff for my family, Pay off bills, and...I dunno.

WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL?: Wash my face, brush my teeth, go to bed.

WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU?: "Pepper spray".

 I'm totally skipping class right now. I just took my math midterm and I'm braindead. Anyway, this has been a bad/good week. Monday sucked because I found out that Justin has a new girlfriend. Of course, I found out from Ashley because Justin's too much of a wimpy prick. As far as he's concerned, he can seriously go to hell. Words can even begin to describe how much I hate him right now...but anyway, it's time to move on with my life. That's where the rest of the week comes in. Me and the girls went to Bob Evan's, and who was our waiter? The cool guy from aerobics! He was really nice, and we left our usual note with our e-mail adresses on it so he could e-mail us. He sounds pretty cool, so...we'll see.

 Ok, the Zach situation...I think he's backing off. YAY! I told him that there wasn't any chance of an "us", and I really I hope I didn't hurt his feelings, but he said he was ok with it. Other than that, I found out that there's ANOTHER guy that likes me. Why can't we go back to the days when everything was simple? When boys still had cooties, and the only guy in your life was your dad? I dunno...but anyway, I hope things start to look up soon.

 Well, I've just finished visiting Whynot's blog, and some stuff that he showed me just put me back in an anti-american state of mind. He was talking about this woman who made a blog and won't allow comments that she doesn't approve. This doesn't suprise me, however, because she is a bush supporter. I just want to make my contribution to this, so if by chance this woman is listening...grow the fuck up. You handle the criticism just like the jerk you support: by blocking it out and pretending it isn't there. What are you afraid of? See, this is reflecting exactly how our country works...only one voice is heard. People like you make it so only your voices are heard. You say you want to "balance the country" and all that shit, then let opposing voices be heard.

  I also wanted to share something else. This may not matter to some people, but it really affected me. I was on a chatroom the other day, one that was supposed to be for english and french teens. I was amazed at what these people were saying about America. They weren't afraid to tell me how much this country is hated, and the more they were talking to me...the more I found myself agreeing. This country does suck. We are living proof of what goes wrong when you get too egotistic and powerful. I used to love this country, and I used to believe what I was told in school: that I had the power to change anything. After this last election, I'm sad to say that the people that taught me that were wrong. See, Democracy doesn't work. When people like Bush can come in and fuck everything up royally, and still get re-elected, it kind of makes you second guess everything. Bush supporters are probably saying "you just love kerry" and the fact is, no I don't. I'm positive that he was paid off, or blackmailed into giving up so easily. The fact is that when Kerry gave up, they hadn't even counted all the votes in Ohio yet! They hadn't even counted the absentee ballots, and that's where most of his votes would have been. So, maybe I'm pessimistic. Maybe I'm too paranoid. But when you're 16 and you feel the way I do, it's pretty sad. So what now, Bush? Weren't you supposed to be helping the youth in America?

I'm still waiting, asshole. 

 Well, the first week back at school has been fun interesting. Tecumseh's the same: stupid people that ruin my hope for humanity, but Clark state is actually been pretty fun. I've learned that drinking is a good thing, because the money you give to the bar goes to the workers at the bar, then they go out and buy what they need, and so on. This is good for the economy. I've also learned that drinking and driving is a good thing, because if you hurt (or kill) someone, the money from your insurance goes to the insurance workers, and so on. This is also good for the economy. Don't be offended or anything, it's just what I've learned.

 I'm beginning to think I have a stalker. Zack will not leave me alone. He calls me at least 2 times a day, walks me everywhere at school, and wants us to go out (alone) on weekends. Excuse me, doesn't this sound like a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship? I told him I didn't want that, but he doesn't seem to understand it. I want him to get over me! I don't even really want to go to prom with him anymore...Why can't something go my way for once? Why couldn't Justin have asked me to prom? That's all I really wanted...I'm not going to be torn up over it, though. I have to accept reality. Justin's not going to ask me, I'm going to prom with Zack, Graduation will come and I'll lose Brittany and Justin, and things just can't go my way.

One person I want to see right now
1. Justin.

****Basics:*****
[Name] Patricia

[Nickname] Trisha
[Screen name] ImpatientAries29
[Birthday] March 21st, 1988

[Astrological sign] Aries
[Chinese zodiac sign?] Dragon
[Location] Ohio

[Sexual Preference] Male
[Marital Status] I'm single

[Religion] Christian
[Eye color] Hazel
[Height] 5'4
[Shoe size] 8
[Parents still together] No
[Siblings] None
[Nieces/Nephews] None
[Pets] 3 cats, 2 dogs, 2 ferrets
[What do you drive] Volkswagen Beetle

******Favorites*******
[Color] Blue
[Number] 2
[Animal] Dogs
[Vehicle] I don't really have a favorite
[Flower] Daisies
[Scent] Fruity scents
[Drinks] Lemonade
[Soda] Coke
[Book] Probably "Break any woman down"
[Band] Good Charlotte, Mest
[Song] I like a lot of them

*****Do you*****
[Color your hair?] Yes
[Twirl your hair?] Yeah, when i'm bored
[Have tattoos?] No
[Have Piercings?] No
[Have a boyfriend?] No
[Cheat on tests/homework?] On homework
[Drink/Smoke?] No
[ Like roller coasters?] Yeah
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] Yes
[Want more more piercings?] No, not really.
[Like cleaning?] Yeah, it calms me down.
[Write in cursive or print?] Print
[Sweat a lot?] No
[Own a web cam?] No
[Know how to drive?] Yes
[Diet?] No
[Own a cell phone?] Yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] Yeah, usually.

****Have you ever*****
[Gotten a speeding ticket?] No
[Been in a wreck?] No
[Been arrested?] No

[Been in a fist fight?] No

[Kicked someone in the nuts?] Yes
[Stolen anything?] No

[Held a gun?] No

[Drank?] No

[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] No
[Considered a life of crime?] Yeah, sometimes ^_^
[Considered being a hooker?] Uh...no.
[Cried over a girl?] Yeah, a friend.
[Cried over a boy?] Oh yeah.
[Lied to someone?] Of course.
[Been in love?] Yes
[Fallen for your best friend] No
[Made out with JUST a friend] Yes
[Been rejected?] Of course.
[Been in lust?] Yes
[Used someone?] No

[Been used?] Yes
[Been cheated on?] Yes
[Experimented with homosexuality?] No
[Current mood] Bored.
[Current taste] Coke.
[Current hair] Down
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Homework
[Current cds in stereo] I don't remember
[Current crush] ******
[Current job] Don't have one

*****The last time*****
[Last book you read] My math book
[Last movie you saw] Without a paddle
[Last thing you ate] Mcdonald's
[Last person you talked to on the phone] Zack

******Do you*****
[Do drugs?] No
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] Yes
[Play an instrument?] Yeah, the clarinet
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Yes
[Remember your first love?] Yeah
[Still love him/her?] No
[Read the newspaper?] No

[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Not that I know of.
[Believe in miracles?] Yes
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] Yes
[Consider yourself tolerant of others?] Absolutely not.
[Consider love a mistake?] No, everything happens for a reason.
[Have a favorite candy] Pixie stix
[Believe in astrology?] No, but its fun to read.
[Believe in magic?] No
[Believe in God?] Yes
[Do well in school?] For the most part.
[Go to or plan to go to college] Yeah, I go to college and yeah, I plan to keep going.
[Wear hats?] Sometimes
[Hate yourself?] No, not completely
[Have an obsession?] No
[Have a secret crush?] I have a crush, but he's insane if he hasn't noticed.
[Do they know yet?] Probably.
[Collect anything?] No

[Have a best friend?] Yes
[Close friends?] Yeah
[Like your handwriting?] Yeah
[Care about looks?] Well, it's not all about looks, but they do matter a little bit.

*****Love life*****
[single or attached?] Technically single, but definetly attached.
[Ever been in love?] Yes
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] No
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Yes
[Describe your ideal significant other] Funny, outgoing, sweet, caring, loyal...

******Juicy stuff*******
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] Yes
[Are you a tease?] Not really...
[Shy to make the first move?] I like for guys to make the first move, but If I really like him then I'll go ahead.

******Are you a…*******
[Wuss] Sometimes
[Druggy] No
[Daydreamer] Yes
[Freak] No
[Dork] Yes
[Bitch/Asshole] I can be a major bitch if I want to.
[Brat] Yes
[Sarcastic] Yeah
[Angel] Eh, kinda.
[Devil] Eh, kinda.
[Shy] It depends on who i'm with.

First post of 2005! Go me! Anyway, I partied for a while at home last night, but then I went to Zack's. It was pretty fun, and a lot less confusing because it was only me, Justin, Zack, Ashley, and Zack's parents. At our house, we had Jessica, Uncle Bob, Chris, Auntie Sis, Marilyn, my mom, and mimi. I was a little worried that Zack would try to kiss me when the ball dropped but he didn't...he did kiss me when I dropped him off from the movies the other night. I really hope he doesn't get false hope, because I don't want to give him the idea that I like him like that. When he kissed me there weren't any fireworks, you know what I mean? I did say yes to prom though...I figured that was the least I could do. I was hoping someone else would ask me, but I kind of knew that he wouldn't.

Today's turning out to be crap. The whole week, Brittany kept saying "oh, we'll go to paradox this saturday" but when I called her this morning she said she didn't want to go. I really need to get out of here, so I called Justin to see if he wanted to do something and he said for me to call him back later. He probably won't go, so that leaves me locked in my room for yet another night. I've also been crying for no reason, and when I start I usually can't stop. I feel like crying right now, but I don't know why...I think the reality of graduation is setting in, and I feel like I'll be losing all my friends. Brittany will be in Texas, Justin will be god knows where (and since it's like pulling teeth to get him to call me now, we'll never talk again after his graduation), and this is too depressing to talk about. Long story short...depressing day, wanna cry, be back later.